As I approach 19 years of sobriety , I am sober only by the Grace of God. How grateful I am for finding my savior. It has been the toughest past year of my life. Losing my son in 2021 has just changed everything about me. Fortunately I have not had to take a drink. I sometimes wonder what would happen if I did, not often but sometimes. I thank God everyday for my sobriety and pledge along with his intervention to protect myself for the next twenty four hours ahead. I struggle in these times of grief and sometimes have a hard time just telling God I love him during my morning prayers. I say i love you but I always follow that promptly with a “but” I miss my son and want him back.. Hopefully time will allow me to just say to God, ” I love you” without any “buts”. So this message I want to convey is that God will get you through the rough times. It is not going to be easy as I am experiencing but I believe will happen through prayer and continued hard work. I am convinced that God’s will for me is to help others who are suffering from our disease of alcoholism. Let’s help our struggling fellow alcoholics any way we can and anytime without hesitation. Thank you for reading my posts and may God bless you!