I have really myself losing focus, over the past month, on the importance of maintaining my most spiritual practices; foremost daily prayer and meditation. For nearly 12 3/4 years of sobriety I can confidentially say that I hadn’t missed a day of prayer and meditation. As I have mentioned in previous posts, this is so important in my daily life of sobriety. I looked forward to it every morning by finding a quiet place in my home for deep prayer and reading. It was and will again continue to be my first action of the day. However, this past month I have been very neglectful in this area. I must admit to having missed more than at least five days of prayer over the past month. I have no excuses except to say I have placed other activities first in the beginning my day first.
The primary focus for writing my book, and starting a website with a blog on this site and another, was to reach out to suffering alcoholics to show that there is hope for a better life. Over the last month I have been preoccupied with seeing if I have followers on my sites as well as any comments. I have wondered if my book sales have reached out to suffering alcoholics and their families, or not. I am coming to the realization that I may never know. I feel reaching out to help is my calling and am going to continue my quest. I have to remember not to seek personal recognition for it is not I who am doing all the work. It is God. I have been back on focus over the last week, with regards to daily prayer, so I do not lose focus on its importance in my life. I thank God for this awakening for it could have been a real endangerment to that which most importantly keeps me sober on a daily basis. It has been said that ” God is doing for me what I could not do for myself”. I believe this and feel very blessed.
In addition, I will try blog more frequently as my hope that this site and others will gain followers so that comments/discussions may help a suffering alcoholic seek sober way of life. May God continue to send blessings your way.
These are good thoughts and even though you have felt them negatively you are nonetheless experiencing feelings that we all struggle with. I too have fallen off the wagon in the sense of daily reading, prayer and meditation and can attribute it to nothing less than being bored and the tendency toward self-reliance in lie of God. Others need to hear that what might have always worked for them in sobriety or their spiritual walk isn’t necessarily working anymore. However, the remedy is simple: Ask for Gods forgiveness and renewal in your life and modify your spiritual regimen. This could include any one or more of the following: Update prayer requests by discarding, adding and/or modifying who and what needs priority; include new supporting materials (i.e., literature) in your ethic and changing the time or place for your quiet time. I have incorporated all of these tactics in my quiet time to keep it fresh and interesting. Good luck and keep up the good work.