As I approach 19 years of sobriety , I am sober only by the Grace of God. How grateful I am for finding my savior. It has been the toughest past year of my life. Losing my son in 2021 has just changed everything about me. Fortunately I have not had to take a drink. I sometimes wonder what would happen if I did, not often but sometimes. I thank God everyday for my sobriety and pledge along with his intervention to protect myself for the next twenty four hours ahead. I struggle in these times of grief and sometimes have a hard time just telling God I love him during my morning prayers. I say i love you but I always follow that promptly with a “but” I miss my son and want him back.. Hopefully time will allow me to just say to God, ” I love you” without any “buts”. So this message I want to convey is that God will get you through the rough times. It is not going to be easy as I am experiencing but I believe will happen through prayer and continued hard work. I am convinced that God’s will for me is to help others who are suffering from our disease of alcoholism. Let’s help our struggling fellow alcoholics any way we can and anytime without hesitation. Thank you for reading my posts and may God bless you!

It has been a very long time since I have posted anything to this site. I have kept the site available for any new visitors who might be able to use any of the thoughts I have shared in previous posts. I am sorry I do not have a good reason to not post any new topics. I just have not felt well. So with that said I am going to try to get back on the ball. I want to help struggling alcoholics so badly and sometimes I feel like a I may not be making any difference in lives of people who are desperately seeking sobriety or those who need encouragement in early sobriety. I have asked God daily to direct me in a course of action. I want to do his will for me. I wish this to be my calling for the rest of my life, that is helping others. Accomplishing some work through divine intervention is what I should seek. Recognition should not be part of my work. I am going to try this with guidance from God.

I know I have posted an apology or two for not sharing on this site but hopefully that will change in the future. God bless you all.